Okay, so I said I would do this, but now that the time has come, it is WAY harder than I thought. In my last blog post, I told you that I would post my weight here tonight from when I went to Tops for the first time. Well, I arrived home about an hour ago, and it took me that long to sit down and have a cup of tea and build up my courage...I would have had a drink for the courage, but apparently there are a lot of calories in alcohol, lol.
So the number is....drumroll, please! Today, I looked at the number, and I knew that I was up there, but it was 204.4. There you go, there it is for all the world to see. The good news is that last year when I was back and forth to the doctor a lot before they found out what my problems were, I had hit 232 at one point, so I am down since last year, but tonight it feels like I have so very far to go before I am at a healthy weight again.
But today I start, and next Monday night, I hope to give you a smaller number.
And for all of you who have sent me an email and are ready to start your journey with me, I guess the best forum is going to be a Facebook page where we can all check in with each other, provide support, motivation and a shoulder to cry on when we need it. I hope to have time to sit down tomorrow and get that done, and I will send it to everyone who said they wanted to do this together.
I will also admit that I am a bit down tonight, as I really can't believe that my number is so high, I weighed about 30 pounds less than this on the day Mitchell, my oldest was born, and that was before I gave birth. Ugh...okay, I can do this, right? I need to do this!
You can SO do this! And you WILL do this! Don't feel discouraged...you've just made the best decision yet and that is to start. I know exactly how you feel about those numbers and I'm beginning my own personal journey, too! I'm trying to put less of a focus on numbers (because they stress me out too much) and more of a focus on the physical ability to do certain things (ie. Run X kms, Succeed at Certain Yoga Poses, etc).
ReplyDeleteI wish you well, Verna! I'm sure you'll do awesome...and good for you for wanting to make the change. The first step is usually the hardest but I know I'm sure ready! :)
I have a blog for my preschool and then noticed your post below my blog info. Just wanted you to know I read your post and am thinking of you. I think putting it in writing will motivate you to stick to it and I will cheer you on along the way!! Cheryl (Cummings) Arsenault, Calgary
ReplyDeleteGood luck Verna, you can do this. It is hard as food is such a comfort to many of us. My sister recently lost 50 lbs and we have been so happy for her, because it was seriosly affecting her health. She is rather a fuzzy eater and finally decided to cut her portions in half, and it worked!!! I always found inspriration in other peoples success stories which is why I am telling you about hers. The FB page is a great idea. We have one with a few friends who are all challenged to lose weight, and it is fun and easy to vent there without the whole world seeing it. All the best, and continue to blog please, I love your writing.
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